I remember essay

 "I remember"

1. Complete 3 paragraphs

2. Experiment with 3 perspectives

3. Achieve an "arc"

4. Shift content from collage focused

5. Reach "stream of consciousness "

6. Use repetition/parallelism 

  I remember when I was young, my mom took me to a pediatric dentist and made me get a treatment for my cavity. I remember I cried all the time whenever I visited the dentist. I remember I was lost in a water park called Caribbean Bay, and went to the service center for an announcement to find my family when I was 5. I remember I cried in  dark and scary rides in Tokyo Disney Land and what the rides looked and felt like. I remember when my younger sister was born, and everyone celebrated her birth. I remember when all old people on the streets called my sister a cute baby and my mom was delighted with those comments. I remember I cried a lot on the first day I went to an English Kindergarten and my mom came to pick me up. I remember how much I was frustrated when I first visited there. I remember in the car way home, I said to my mom, “I don't want to go to the Kindergarten anymore.” I remember my aunt bought me an English book about koalas, but I could not read any of the words in that book, so my mom and dad read it for me.

I remember all my achievements are from my envying and fear for falling behind my peers. I started studying English and getting used to speaking English, even though I just attended the English kindergarten to get higher scores than kids of my mom's friends. And it worked with my effort. When I was 7, I was able to speak to foreigners when I visited foreign countries. In Guam, I remember that I requested to fix an electric kettle in a hotel room by communicating with the manager in English. I got a lot of encouragement from the hotel staff, and it motivated me to speak in English more often. I always thought I must never fall behind others from my kindergarten age. Perhaps, my sister’s birth made me feel like that since the focus of attention from my family shifted entirely from me to my sister. I had to prove myself with achievements in my life to get an attention. To be honest, one of the reasons that I applied for KMLA is to be a winner from my middle school. The admission to KMLA was a kind of proof to myself about whether I am able to achieve what I want to achieve. 

I don't remember exactly when I started feeling envious of achievers, and why that young girl was critical about herself and didn't believe any fairy tale success story. I don't remember why I cried about all the small things when I was young and why she was too sensitive and afraid of failure. I feel that whatever I have achieved so far is only superficial.  Besides, still, the young girl in me has a sense of envy and fear to be stigmatized as a social failure. What big challenges I have to face when I try to achieve for my next goal?